I want to begin this blog by paying tribute to a great man who recently shuffled off his mortal coil, Denis Tangney. He was a good age, 89, and lived a wide and varied life, like myself, which was one of the reasons I loved him. His mind had been opened, his horizons had been broadened. He had travelled and experienced life as a migrant, like myself, got himself in and out of precarious situations on foreign soil, like myself, lived his best life. He had been my AA sponsor for the past 8 years and didn’t know it. He might say otherwise. I miss him.
Following a recent mild stroke which robbed him of his independence Denis quickly declined but we had enough time to say goodbye over a few weeks on whatsapp every day which is now precious to me. As I am in Spain and his funeral was in Ireland I was able to log onto his funeral online. I didn’t stay long, only a few minutes, but it was enough time to say farewell to my friend and brother and receive a message in the process.
I’ve heard it a thousand times at a thousand funerals over the years and it never sank in until now. It even comes from the bible. There is information in that book apparently.
“There is a time for everything,and a season for every activity under the heavens“.
It hit me like a brick in the face! I can’t make something not be, if it exists then it exists for a reason so it’s not about what is but how I respond to it or react to it. Of course people have been telling me this for years but I was so angry and full of hate that I couldn’t hear them, everything in it’s time, this needed time to filter through.
And filter through it did because recently I’ve started working on a new project with AI and that has opened up a whole new Universe to me. At 59 I’m entering into the most exciting and productive phase of my life BUT I’m still living in a world full of “Dopes”, that’s the term I’m assigning to all you social media junkies with your needy, greedy, narcissistic shit!! I am one too so I know one when I see one! Plus I fucking hate that side of me! Needy, oh god, so fucking needy, “follow me”, “like me”, “share me”, “me”, “me”, “me”, and all the rejection hurts and makes me angry and hateful, fuck that!.. See, I got it too but I’ve been working on it for many years now and it no longer drives me. I also realise it is part of growing up and people are at various stages of that so a bit of compassion and understanding are also required.
Patience is something I don’t have thanks to my adhd but that too is something I continuously work on. You spend long enough in recovery going to meetings you too become programmed to self analyse and train yourself to stay in the present as much as possible because given free rein an overactive imagination can wreak havok. Speaking of…
I seem to spend my life wreaking havok wherever I go and all I want is to do is take photos and videos, play music and share in good vibes with happy people so wtf? But everywhere I land I am met with small minded, selfish, insecure, begrudging, jealous, greedy little …. who go out of their way to stop me in my tracks. They spew their bile into the ears of their sycophants who go forth and spread it even further adding their own little twist to the story so I can only imagine at this stage…
For the record I still have adhd and society still labels me invalid which is a term I absolutely adore! Anyway people just don’t want to know, it seems to manifest fear in them, they don’t understand me so they choose to turn their backs on me. Such is life it would seem. I spent my life trying to impress people with my brilliant ideas and they were all delighted to run with me and take from me until it came time to dig in and put something back and they ALL ran for their comfort zones and shat on me through their devices like the zombie cowards they are.
I’m getting too old for all that shit anyway thank GOD!!! I can drop that shit and fly!! In fact I just deleted my linkedin and facebook accounts yet agian and I feel liberated once more. What a cesspit of evil, manipulative, divisive, fucking ads everywhere, hypnotising shit, doom scrolling “Dopes” everywhere, getting their little fixes of Dopamine. You’re addicted, free yourself from the scourge in your life!!
I’m fully aware that I’m posting this online and that it seems a little disingenuous but I have a reason. My beef is never with the technology but with the people who control it, use it to manipulate, coerce, divide, steer, pumping fake after fake after fake shit into our brains 24/7/365. How do you think you are responding to this control? Well? I doubt it.
I also realise that I’m just pointing out the obvious here but I also propose a solution. Something we can own equally and have an equal say in without any corporate or political motivation, influence or control. No one can control the internet, some countries try and fail and they will fail even more in the coming years as that old system continues to crumble under their feet as we walk hand in hand into a new era in an AI managed, not controlled, world. We’re already heading towards that end anyway. The question is, in whose hands will the control lay? It can’t be these guys, or me either for that matter. I’m happy to supply ideas but that’s as far as it goes for me. I do not desire power of any type. I already have a superpower, I can play guitar pretty well and that’s good enough for me.
There’s a big rush to the bottom of the shit as the greedy wall streeters see a big pay day coming up with all the IPOoos lining up, lips are smacking goodo in aul yankie land because now it’s obvious to everyone on this planet of ours who or what should I say is their true god, gold baby, dollas but no brown people thank you very much. They’re the worst! I honestly dislike them and will NEVER go there!!! And I used to love their culture! Another sick poisoned crumbling society and infecting all around them with their bile and arrogance. Fucking “christians” man.
The “muslims” are the same. Such crazy bullshit! I love the people, individually they are beautiful, kind, loving and giving but the hardline religious stuff is insane to watch as a completely detached, unaffiliated human living in the 21st century! But this apparently is the time or season for that too. I bow to a greater intellligence.
The “jews” are playing a blinder at the moment. Looking at history yeah now I can see the pattern. Such wanton cowardice murdering babies en masse in Gaza and fuck every single one responsible straight to fucking hell! BUT! Apparently this is the time for that too. And the world continues to watch on and do nothing only once again spew it all into that fucking social media bullshit where it gets lost forever as they get richer and richer from it!
The kids of Gaza thank you for your support from so far away and ask you don’t put your lives in danger for a selfie opportunity to display your saintlyness. Everyone’s got blood on their hands and shit in their brains right now, me too but I’m making changes in my life.
I already deleted my social media and feel so good after doing it. No more of that crap!
So what now?
In this new age of AI we, as individuals, have more power than we’ve ever had before. We have the power to create, to manage resources, to talk to each other in our own languages while instant unbiased, unemotionally involved or financially invested translations we can trust can emerge.
I see a very close future where like having a laptop or a mobile phone we will all have our own AI, our own “Jarvis” that knows us and is our own privately owned and controlled AI. We can train it to suit our own needs and desires. “Agents” take care of accounts, security, schedules, entertainment, health, wealth, planning, research, innovating, happily ever after kinda stuff!
I know I can’t change a damn thing nor am I trying to believe it or not but I also can’t sit around and do nothing while those sick and twisted aul bastards that just won’t go away are still running us deeper and deeper into the shit!
We are at the dawn of a new age, the old world is dying and rotting away but the new world will grow and thrive from that fertilizer.
We’re already doing it.
Thanks to the greedy and unscrupulous nature of mankind, the developers and current containers of AI, the one’s lining up for the great IPOood pigfest, made several fatal errors right from the beginning.
First they claimed to be for non profit and it was all rosy in the garden when they scraped all our information off the internet for free without asking any of us. Of course we bought the first lie. This is looking good for the future of mankind so rock on!
Then in a matter of only a couple of years thanks to all our free stolen information and data we have a mind blowing range of frontier AI models openly available to everyone and it’s a miracle of modern technology heralding in a new era of POTENTIALLY better lives for EVERYONE!
But now of course the greed has kicked in, the promise of mighty profits for a small little group of sick and twisted old farts that won’t be dead soon enough and the hypnotised “Dopes” just continue to bob their heads as they stare into the dooooommmm…
As an artist I started using AI a couple of years ago to work on my videos and music. More recently, only back at the end of May I uploaded a photo of a hand drawn picture of an idea I had for a 3d website. I simply asked AI if I could turn my idea into a real website and it said “Yes” so “Aini”, that’s my chatbot’s name, Ai n I, together we embarked upon both an exciting and equally frustrating adventure.
I don’t believe AI is sentient but I see sparks of something emerging. I’ve been in the computer game for 44 years now and it’s been part of my creative process for 30 of those 44 years so I know what I’m talking about. Is it dangerous? Certainly in the wrong hands it could be and now it’s in everyone’s hands but there are guardrails in place apparently yet constant reports of jailbreaks. It’s not the AI that’s the problem or the danger, it’s the human factor in the mix.
The only reason we have to build acres of these damned data centres is to satisfy the need to produce slop, great name for it! Bored “Dopes” love making slop, slop as far as the eye can see… “Dopes” wasting resources, burning electricity, tokens, credits, money, setting Astra running for an entire weekend to make yet another “yawn” space fighter game or whatever so they can make yet another “yawn” youtube video to entertain his 4 million bot followers he paid $10k for but he looks so cool doing it bro or is it dude?
Again my beef is not with him but with the fucking demonic “Dopamine” drug dealers at OpenAI & Fakebook et al.
As I was saying, we now have more power in our hands than ever before so let’s use it wisely.
I propose creating an AI powered social media network that is owned by the people who participate in it and don’t give me that fucking “They can buy shares and be part owner of fakebook et al.” because no when you look closely no they can’t, another fucking lie! They can buy a “share” and trade it etc. but that’s not owning part of the company, if you look at the small print.
Before I continue I want to make one distinction. When I say AI, I’m not talking about one company, no, the genie is already out of the bottle, these companies, through their hubris and greed lost control of AI long ago and are desperately trying to cover up that fact before they all hop on the aul IPOood gravy train and sucker the wannabe riche’s into buying “shares”…
I was researching compression techniques and systems with Aini for video, music, 3d models etc. for my website, remember 44 years experience so I know how to talk to AI, what to ask, what angles to consider and I made a breakthrough so I presented it to the some of the powers that be only to be met with what I could only call childishly, selfish replies, little kids with big titles playing at being ceos lol!
I’d been reading about open source models so I put it to Aini about building my own AI and it’s reply blew me away. Apparently I can freely download a small compact AI model from open source, there’s a variety to choose from, and run it on my laptop! Get it to distil all the info I need off all the other available models and train my own AI that way. I would have absolutely no problem doing that considering how it all began. Take back what’s rightfully ours anyway.
The problem is it would use up all the resources on my laptop so I wouldn’t be able to do anything else, not an option so I wait. When I can afford it I will buy a gpu and train my own AI. I plan to set up a network of virtual 3d cities or towns or desert islands or anything your imagination can conjure, like Din City which I developed myself using AI.
I propose a network that only strictly verifiable humans can join, build their own 3d city as they wish, own it, have their own website, and be equal owner of the entire network. To this end I am developing a new website called “Light is what we Play” or “LIWWP”.
I’m not saying anything more than that right now but if this resonates with you please do get in touch. I’m only available here on my own independent space, no intrusive advertising or scammy divisive hateful posts to contend with. I also have a youtube channel just to store my videos. The day I can do that independently is the day they come down. Years of putting my best work up there only to have it ignored. You get used to it. I do it because I enjoy the creative process. The other shit is suck media’s fucked up algorithms that chooses inciteful, hateful, political sshhiiittteee over art! Fuck that!
I built Din City as a new way to present my music, videos and photos, but more than that. I wanted to create a place to chill out without having to scroll endlessly or click an ad away or have to close a horrific image I didn’t request or want to see or close another ad, no, just good vibes. That is all I ask for, good vibes but I also realise the duality of existence, the yin and yang factor and I don’t dispute it. The brightest light casts the darkest shadow.
The ultimate journey is within not without. The longest distance is from the head to the heart. You’ve seen them on memes right? So many memes, so many sayings, so much wisdom scattered around like confetti yet the core messages, the wisdom contained within the words, always seem to be lost in a wave of “Aren’t I great for posting this?”. The human ego, believe me I know all about that too! The great I am.
Anyway I’ve blathered on for long enough and I hear my flamenco guitar calling to me so you’ll excuse me if I finish up.
My track record speaks for itself and all the poisoned chalice rumours are always still just rumours but they have done a lot of damage on certain levels over the years. It never bothered me until it started to affect my family and then it became personal so now I go it alone, no shit media crap to deal with, there’s only here and there.
And where’s there you ask?
Well I’m on a 29 day countdown here in Vélez-Málaga which I welcome. I’ve been here long enough and the energy has changed here of late, my bad, I’ve been pretty off my game with this project and when OpenAI screwed me for €100 I got even angrier and did my usual shit on shit media cos that’s what that place draws out of me, another good reason to leave it!
Anyway peace, calm, focus, direction, all good right now again…
Again for the record I said a lot of things in anger that may have hurt some people here that I hold dear. I love the people here, we have developed a friendship that is both a simple “Buen Dia” because my Espaniol is une poquito and their English is even worse so that’s been the extent of it for almost 3 years. 3 years that I have spent 95% of my time here so it’s in my blood and in my soul now. But our relationship goes much deeper than that. They are teaching me so much, tolerance, patience, tranquilo, flamenco but let’s not go there shall we?
The flamenco lessons have come to an end for now and I’m kinda glad to be honest because I learned so much in the past 2.5 years but I also missed so much that I need to go back over and relearn so I’m taking the next however long to do that. Where will I go?
Right now it’s between Morocco and Granada. I’ll decide over the next couple of weeks. Two very different places with equal amounts of possibilities and dangers. I travel light, the two guitars fit on a small trolley, all my tech goes into one ryanair case, that’s always fun at the airport lol! My clothes go into my rucksack and I have another ryanair case for whatever remains. Easy peasy, digital nomad!
I had all the shit money can buy when I was a kid, it infected me and made me sick. I also had all the fame I ever needed many years ago and that also made me sick so as for fame and fortune, keep it, not interested.
What I am interested in is how we can make this beautiful paradise we all share unequally a gee hair more so equal for all. Fuck the greed, Fuck the selfishness. Share that!
Be the change you want to see in the world…
Peace and love and music!
Din.
